This will be my last post. There's nothing that can excuse my recent behavior towards another lj user except the amount of stress I am under. It's very intense. I am backing off of the internet for awhile.I need a break from everything at the moment...especially work, which brings me closer to chaos than I've ever been in my life. This may be my last stand as the bear you've come to know. Mental illness runs in my family; I've been in denial for some time now. I'm going to delete profiles and avoid the venues that pull me in and yet somehow get me in trouble, until I get a grip on things. My humblest apologies to everyone, especially the man I love.